I think I could cut the anxiety through a knife, through the screen 😜
Anyway, I really liked your writing and I have some good advice for you as a master procrastinator.
1. Based on the story, I could feel you want to write the novel. You need to narrow down to a Yes or No by yourself first before you move to step

2. Start with a time based goal. Use apps like Forrest to focus for 2 hrs a day. It doesn’t matter what you write or how much. You can even stare at a blank screen for 2 hrs, but you have to sit infront of your screen for the pre-decided time.

3. After 2 weeks on step 2, move to activity based goals. It means, finishing a page a day or any target which sounds reasonable to you.

I don’t think you should think of it as writing a novel, rather a daily primary activity you need to accomplish.

I would love to see your progress in another story by you very soon.

All the best.